I'm sat at home, mouth clamped firmly shut because my jaw aches when I talk and my swallow is painful, silently cursing the Boy and his best friend (my other housemate) for not vacuuming, taking out the remains of the weekend's curry or emptying bins and for leaving crap around the front room all of which is preventing me from idling the afternoon in a haze of icecream and magazines.
Then I read this and I realise:
- I have survived the removal of a pound of flesh
- I have survived two hours under general anaesthetic
- I am wholly and earnestly in love with a man
- A caring, thoughtful and continually tested and proven man is in love with me
- I have the brain and the wherewithal (just about) to pass this year of study and go on to do great things
- The world is peopled by interesting, engaging, considerate and tender individuals, all negotiating their own private tragedies and trying their very best to be good. *
I feel lucky, and chosen, and perfectly ordinary too.
*I feel I should put mostly or largely or something specific about proportion into that last statement, because, goodness, the world and its population are not all... well... goodness. But I don't think now is the time to dwell on that or even give them mention. I feel lucky, and chosen, and perfectly ordinary too.